Shmiracles Send Message

wow i’m kinda obsessed with steepster today. i must REALLY wanna avoid real life.
plus it’s rainy and monday and weekends are never long enough. every monday i have a small existential crisis where i question what the purpose of life is and what my purpose is, if any, and where the value in our time and experience is and if it even contributes to society at all just by trying our best. or if it’s all kinda meaningless but we should still try our best cuz that’s where the value is in itself, just by trying. or if it’s all egotistical to think that there is meaning at all. and that the effort to find meaning is just a self-soothing exercise. (aka should i read history books or just go drink pints at the bar haha) (joking) (i can do both at the same time!)
okay okay okay…
i had this tea at the museum after outdoor yoga.
it’s a free class given to anyone who shows up during spring and summer. the problem is that the class is HUGE. and it makes you feel small and a little trite when you are trying to take yoga instruction from a guy wearing sunglasses and holding a microphone as you are squeezed between a fountain and a fern in the far edge of a man made park (even though it’s IS a pretty museum park) with everyone’s yoga mats squished up against each other in all other directions. not as connected to nature as i wanted to be.
there was a moment when we were relaxing at the end and the fountain was generating cool air on one side of my body and the sun was very very warm and relaxing on the other side of my body and i had my eyes closed and i know i was supposed to be focusing on my breath but i’m not good at that and i kept thinking of Sherlock instead. so that was a highlight.
hahaha
the tea tasted more orange than jasmine. but i got 2 good steeps out of the loose leaf bag. and my sister shared her scone with me.